October 2010
You know a few months back, when I was upset and everything because I hated being single and was on the verge of giving up?
I do.
But then everything changed. I found a girl I liked. Fuck, I really liked her. More than I should like anyone in the space we were actually dating. I felt like I could totally be myself around her. She lived a couple of towns away. Nothing too big. A couple of buses. Just over an hour. We spent time together. Enough time to think ‘Wow, this is it. She’s amazing. We could be together for a long time.”
And she told me she felt the same. We were happy.
So when did everything go wrong? Everything was fine the same morning. We woke up. Had tea. Kissed goodbye and planned to see each other in the week.
Then “I think the distance is going to be a problem, I can’t handle it.”
It’s over.
You knew how far I was, you knew about your feelings and past relationships, yet you still said you wanted to be with me. I thought you meant it. I thought you were different than the others.
Apparently not.
I didn’t cry this much when my first love and I split. Why the hell does this hurt so much fucking more than pretty much any of my last relationships? I don’t understand why this fucked up.
I think I need you. Can we seriously not talk this out and start again?
Black, Red, Purple.
Thank you ^_^ <3
i will be using the French diet <3 It sounds incredibly effective <3 and it seems easy too :) skinny holidays, here i come :D
What’s the French diet?